Keep
your eyes on Me, not only for direction but also for empowerment.
I
never lead you to do something without equipping you for the task.
Sarah Young
writing for Jesus on (April 23rd’s devotional entry) “Jesus Calling”
At this time of year, beautiful trees like the above can be seen all over Chiang Mai. |
Last Saturday, I was asked by two friends whether I
would consider doing something that I actually already thought about doing. When
the thought occurred to me, I only briefly considered the idea because I felt
it was too preposterous for me to do. I quickly pushed it out of my mind thinking
that there was no way I could do it. As the first person asked me if I thought
of doing it, I actually admitted that it did cross my mind but I told her that
I didn’t think I could do it. She immediately asked me why not and added that
it was something she thought I would do well. Quickly adding and telling her that
I wouldn't know how to go about doing it, I left her while shaking my head at
the notion. Turning to my other friend who heard the earlier exchange, I added
that I couldn't believe the first friend would make such a suggestion! The
second friend then turned to me and expressed that she thought I could do it.
Refusing to believe what I heard twice and choosing to discount it, I drove
home bewildered but I couldn't shake off the absurdity of the whole discussion. “What was that about?” I asked myself, and why was it brought to my
attention again? I then had a mental conversation with God. I began to wonder
if the first time I thought of the idea was actually from Him. I argued (?) and
tried to convince Him that He couldn’t possibly be serious in what He was telling
me. Surely, He didn’t want me to do it, did He? I tried to tell Him that there
was no way I could possibly do it well but He reminded me that with Him, I
could do anything.
There are mountains usually seen on the horizon behind the homes in the picture. Unfortunately, Thais burn their fields to clear it, causing the unhealthy pollution. |
God’s suddenly comes from nowhere. It happens so
fast that it overwhelms and we are left understanding but unbelieving. It’s just
so hard to believe! Yet, situations happen and there is no denying His
handiwork. After one week, I am amazed that my life will be taking on a new
direction in the near future. I’m still getting used to the idea. I choose to
trust that the Lord knows what He is doing. I know that whatever my
reservations are, He knows best!
We serve an awesome God and He transforms and
changes us in a blink of an eye. His suddenly has the tendency to suck our
breath out from us (this happened twice to me this past week!) but He is always up to something good. I believe it is best
for us to just go along for the ride. We can trust His love and His goodness.
=) And, it is disconcerting and scary, but exciting nonetheless! I guess you can say, I would have it no other way.