I’ve been asked this question many times last week by different people. I finally figured out as I wrestled over my answers that my heart was ready to trust our Lord. Coupled with the question was a song that started to play in my head early last week. The song's title is “Awaken My Heart” and I haven’t heard it in over a decade! Why it started to play in my head while I was praying was surely a mystery. As I listened to the words though, it implored me to know the Lord’s love and to love Him in return. Yes, with a heart that’s awakened, I could love anew. And more important, I could trust the one I love, the same one who loves me and wants me to trust Him. How could we truly love someone we do not trust? My heart is ready to trust.
I admit that this might mean pain for Eric, discomfort, suffering, despair, whatever else, but we can trust the Lord’s heart. He loves us and will only allow Eric to go through what he may for a higher purpose, possibly for the building of his character. I know we will thank Him for it afterward. He is always up to something good.
Please ignore our other prayer requests and agree with us in prayer for the following:
1. That the Lord constantly be glorified in Eric’s circumstances.
2. Regardless of what we want, that His will, will happen, and not ours
3. That we rely solely on God and are unified as a family.
4. That Eric will be prepared physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually, for what’s in store for him.
5. That we trust the Lord completely no matter what happens to Eric.
On the way home from the hospital. <-- We don’t know why Eli is wiped out but this is usually how Eric looks after a treatment.
We thank the Lord for the many miracles we’ve seen already in Eric’s life. As one friend kept saying who’s been around many cancer patients going through horrible side effects, he’s amazed at Eric having hair, having energy, and having no pain nor nausea. Lastly, I had the pleasure of meeting a new friend who’d gone through what Eric is going through right now. She shared about what the Lord taught her as she suffered during her treatments. Later as we prayed, I knew the Lord allowed me to meet her to give me a glimpse of Eric’s future. He won't become sterile because of the chemo, he’ll have his own children, he'll have his own ministry, and he'll have a maturity brought about by this illness. What an amazing God you are, Papa. Thank you!